Lambeth: I don't know, man, I just don't know
Well, Lambeth is over, and the bishops are either coming home or taking off for some sort of quiet and well-deserved vacation. I don't blame them. Little old blogger me wasn't even there, and yet I too feel wiped out from it all. I also feel as if I also grew from all the dialogue, obviously not from attending Indaba groups and having discussions, but from reading the bishops' blogs and talking with other Episcopalians through their own blogs.
I'm going to refrain from commenting or analyzing the concluding document or the myraid of bishop blog posts, mainly because I don't have any original comments or analysis to provide. In fact, I'm not even sure I have UNoriginal comments or analysis to provide. Quite frankly, I just don't know what to think. I'm still fuming that one of my two bishops was excluded from the Conference, but someone from our office who spent a few days at the Conference told me that even though hundreds of bishops still boycotted, hundreds more would have stayed away had +Gene actually shown up and Lambeth would have been a non-event. He was there, and I guess he would know better than me. He also said that the pro-inclusion groups like Integrity were really in-your-face everywhere you went, and that the same couldn't be said of any other groups, including conservatives. I saw something similar on a bishop's blog somewhere, but can't find the link now. Yett on the other hand, how can you ask the queer community to bear the brunt of our sacrifice if you won't even let them in on the deciding discussion? Jesus was an outcast who suffered great pain for the sake of healing and reconciliation, but he was also present at his own trial, as much of a sham as it may have been. This Pastoral Council and moratoria stuff is also vexing. On the one hand, we can't expect the whole Communion to do a whole 180 on any touchy issue in just ten years, but on the other hand, how can we back away from our own principles? Isn't it fair to say if we're a communion, we must all sacrifice and we must stand for something deeper than just being friendly, but isn't it also important to bring all individuals into God's tent?
So, I just don't know what to think. I'm definently in a liberal direction on this, I just don't know *how* I'm in the liberal direction. The road is chosen, but the car isn't, so to speak. I'll put it on the backburner, I think, until I'm able to talk to my other bishop next month and hear his reflections.
I'll probably take it easy with the blogging for the next few days and just throw up some cool links and pictures I've come across, maybe reflect on the Sunday propers. Hopefully I'll step it up a bit with my reviews of DC churches. At some point, I'll write up my predictions for this year's Senate races and review the new Batman movie, but there's no pressing